So I’m in a bit of a training slump. If this were a movie, this is where some one takes me aside and gives me the moving speech that puts me back on track. I start feeling better and destroy all the obstacles in my way. Unfortunately, no one has done that yet, the role is available if you’re interested.
I started running 86 kms, all my runs in total, ago to do my first 5km at the Koala Fun Run. I can happily say I succeeded at that goal and completed it in just over 33 minutes. It was definitely not easy and I have a lot of mixed feelings about my race. Overall, I finished and I’m going to take a few learnings for my next race which is going to be the 10 km Bridge to Brisbane in September.
Today was my first run after my 5kms on Sunday, I could only muster up 2.2 kms at a very very slow pace. I was in survival mode, wanted to do it but not really but knew I should. When I got back, I didn’t feel better for doing it, just glad that was over for the day.
This brings me back to this blog, I think I need to be more accountable in two areas of my life : my running and my eating. Both are getting a bit out of control and I have been doing a half assed job of both – again.
1. Eating – Time to come clean on this one, I like to eat, a lot and its one of my favorite things to do. I have had it under control since last year of University. I lost 20 lbs through weight watchers and have kind of played around ever since. I would gain a few pounds here, then lose a lot there but not enough to worry. I have recently put on about 3-4 kilos, again not the end of the world but is starting to worry me a bit more. I have tried being more accountable for it, but I feel like when you have a little to lose its hard. Its not some epic journey, just an inconvenience. I’m either really into someting and switched on or really not caring. I’m an extremist, there is no middle ground. So TBA on how I plan to tackle weight loss again but its time to address it AGAIN!
2. Running – I thought running would be a means of eating heaps and not gaining much. Well it hasn’t really worked out that way, surprise surprise. I think I’ve gained a bit of muscle and alot more confidance but haven’t lost any kilos. So I think if I lost some weight and trained a bit harder I would start getting some pretty decent results. Again I need to commit a 110% to make this happen rather than 5%. So its time to start reading up about what a runner should eat for a better performance. It would probably be a lot easier to run with less weight to carry around. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not obese or suffering from horrible low self esteem which makes me think I’m fat. I just know I could be doing better and its a very easy slippery slope to putting weight back on. I lost a lot of weight in High School, then put it all back on and then some in Uni.
Originally, it was easy to stay motivated to run, I think it was the fear of the unknown. Now I know how much effort running is, it is a lot more scarier and intimidating than before. 5 kms was hard, now the thought of 10 kms is pretty daunting and terrifying.
Before I read alot of running books, the books really reassured me that I could do it. I’m going to try that again and this time read more nutrion based books to help marry food and running in a better way. I’m debating leaving weight watchers for good, its been a solid 2 years of using the tools on and off. Or I’ll go the other extreme and start attending weight watchers meetings in person, which is pretty intense but could be the kick in the butt I need.
I’m reading a book about accountability, apparently the best way to achieve your goals is to have an accountability buddy. I might start thinking about that approach, finding some one I check in with daily about my progress. I had a person like that for running but I think I need to take it up a notch to include running and food consumption.
I have a lot of decisions to make, first things first is to read up on the topic more and get back into my training. Just writing this blog post and getting everything out in the open is helping a lot. Worst comes to worst I could just be accountable to the Internet which might not be such a bad plan.
As to the blog, this might be a one off post or the beginning of a series of posts about my journey as a super beginner runner with grand aspirations. Only time will tell what happens . . .